Do you prioritize yourself?

Do you prioritize yourself? What do you think when you hear someone say that?

I can remember the first time I heard it. Parker was probably 2 years old, I was working 3 jobs, feeling like I was being pulled in a million directions. I was exhausted, overwhelmed, and totally stressed out. The funny thing is if you had asked me if I was stressed I don’t know if I would have said yes. Stress had become so commonplace for me that I didn’t notice it.

My body couldn’t keep up with the chronic stress that it was under. It gave me plenty of signs, which I chose to ignore before I got sick. When I finally went to the doctor, she told me that I had to prioritize myself if I wanted to get better. 

She asked me to devote 30 minutes a day to things that brought me joy. I thought she was crazy. My days were packed full, there wasn’t room for anything else, especially if it was for me. 

That thinking was exactly what was exacerbating my situation. I was constantly giving to everyone else, except me. 

I was depleting my energy every day and not allowing myself to refuel. No wonder I was so stressed out! I was running on fumes. 

While I didn’t take the advice of the first doctor, autoimmune disease is not very forgiving. I kept feeling worse and worse until I knew I couldn’t live this way anymore. I was going to have to learn how to prioritize myself.

You would have thought someone asked me to gouge one of my eyeballs out.😂 I had no idea where to start or how to do it. I felt selfish and guilty for taking time alone to do what I wanted. 

I started paying attention to everything that I said yes to but really wanted to say no. I also paid attention to all the times I told myself no about when I really wanted to say yes. 

I decided each day I would say yes to one thing I wanted to do. It started with really small things and grew from there. That could be anything from buying myself a cup of coffee, picking the movie or tv show I want to watch, sitting down to read a book, or taking a bath. It didn’t matter how much time it took, just that I said yes to myself. 

Saying no to things I didn’t want to do may have been even harder to tackle than saying yes to myself. Once again I started with really small things and let them grow naturally. Every time I said no to someone or something else it opened up an opportunity for me to say yes to myself. Without even realizing it, I had started habit stacking, or layering a new habit on top of an existing one.

The change has been slow going and is still a work in progress. If I don’t pay attention I can quickly find myself overcommitted and heading towards overwhelm, exhaustion, and stress. But now I know how to get myself on track so I can feel better fast. 

The biggest shift was probably my mindset. I no longer think I’m lazy or selfish if I sit around and do nothing. Sometimes that’s exactly what I need! Rest!

I realized I am important and so are my wants and needs. I thought to be of service to others I had to sacrifice and suffer. But I don’t. I never did. And neither do you.

For me to be able to give to everyone else, I have to fill my cup first. I am a better wife, parent, friend, sister, teacher, and coach when I am not constantly drained and running on fumes. 

If this sounds all too familiar to you, figure out where you can start saying yes to yourself. 30 minutes a day might seem like too much right now, but if you start finding small ways to say yes to yourself, it will start to compound over time.

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